Let me tell you now; you keep using that word and I don’t think you know what it means. Feminism is not just about equal pay or being on equal footing with men. It is about everyone, not just women, being on equal footing with everyone else. This includes people of all genders, races, socioeconomic backgrounds, ability or disability. Just because the name is feminism does not make it inherently exclusively female. In the beginning, sure, it was just women fighting for the rights of women, but it has blossomed into so much more than that since then.
Feminists now fight toxic masculinity, sexism, racism, ableism, transphobia, and a multitude of other issues prevalent in today’s society. Being a feminist does not mean you can’t be a stay at home mother or any of the traditionally female coded gender roles. In fact, that’s even part of the reason why we are feminists. We fight to give people the choice. We fight to end the stigma against all people, regardless of whether or not they want to fit into the mold that society was created. There is nothing wrong with either.
Also, women are not inherently fragile creatures. Since you seem like a religious woman, let me put it to you this way; according to the Bible, Eve was created from Adam’s rib. We are made of the same stuff that men are, and we were created from the rib so that we could stride by Adam’s side—Not in front of him, not behind him, but at man’s side as an equal. We are there to support our partner, as our partner is there to support us.
I think that when you have been picturing the people writing the articles explaining feminism, you have been picturing those people as angry, bra burning women waving around signs about abortion rights and protesting the unfair disparity between the prices of things marketed towards women and things marketed towards men. You are only really half right. The women you are no doubt imagining are some of the older waves of feminism, Trans Exclusionary Radical Feminists (TERFs), and other radical feminists. I am not an angry bra-burner (because as you probably know, bras are expensive as heck). I am a 5 foot 3 inch ball of love and acceptance, and I am a feminist.
I do not exactly understand why you are not a feminist. I do not understand what you mean when you say you do not want the kind of power that men have had all these years, because here is the thing—It is not that they have some great, almighty power like your God has. It is that they have been withholding any kind of power from women, automatically putting us beneath them. We are not going to rule over and terrorize men-- as has been done to us since the Feminist movement started, and long before. We just want equality for all, not just between women and men. Maybe if you can understand this, you can join us.